The List

So the new book I bought today told me to figure out what I want out of love and life and go get it! I guess I've never really thought about ALL that I want out of love or a relationship...so here goes!


*I want a man that gives me butterflies. Even if we've been dating a long time. If it's been a year I still want those butterflies. It's that anxious happy feeling I'd like to call love. I've definitely had a relationship where he gave me butterflies until the day we broke up. And to this day...he still does.

*I want a man that is nice, but not TOO nice. I don't want him to let me walk all over him. I want him to stand up for what he believes in, or feels is right, and at the same time listen and respect what I think or feel.

*I want a man that I'll always want to impress. There have definitely been some past relationships where I "let myself go" and then there was one past relationship where I always wanted to impress my man. This wasn't a bad thing at all... I never had the feeling like I wasn't good enough or he wouldn't love me if I didn't look good. I just wanted to always look good for my man.

*I NEED a man that can make me laugh. He must have a great sense of humor. We need to have a lot of little inside jokes that only we understand and he needs to always make me smile. With this being said, he also needs to be able to put his jokes aside and be able to be serious when it's time to have talks about us.

*I want a man that has good communication skills. My last relationship he didn't ever want to have "talks." Well maybe if he saw how he treated me we wouldn't always had to have "talks." He needs to be able to tell me if he has any problems with our relationship, and also be willing to listen to me and want to make changes that will help our relationship. If we don't have good communication skills, it will go nowhere.

*I NEED an honest man. If trust is broken then the relationship is broken. I don't do the "don't ask don't tell" rule. When I ask you something, be honest, because I always find out the truth. If the truth hurts, I'd rather have that than a lie. Just BE HONEST!

*I need a man that respects me. If I say I want to talk every night on the phone, then call me every night before you go to bed, and don't think I'm overreacting when I get mad if you don't call. If that is something that is important to me, then you should make it a point to follow through with it. I don't care if it's 4 am and you just got back from drinking all night with friends, I want to know that I'm the last person you're thinking about/talking to, before you pass out.

*I want a man that challenges me. Whether it's to be a better person, try a different food, or workout...If there's no challenge I'll get bored.

*I want a man that is athletic and cares about his health. Sports are a HUGE part of my life, and I'd love to have someone to share my passion with. Also, health and wellness are big in my life too. I want a man that will want to go on a run, or go workout with me.

*I NEED a man that has faith in God. I grew up in a household where we went to church every Sunday with brothers, parents, and grandparents. God is important to me, and I feel that a strong belief in God correlates with strong morals and values. I also know that when I get married I want to center the marriage around God. That way it will be a healthy marriage and will be very unlikely to fall apart.

*I want a man that is okay hanging out with my friends, also. My last boyfriend was quiet and uncomfortable around my friends. One time we went to a Royals game to see my friends and he complained they were too far away and just to stay and hang out with his friends. Really? The last 4 years of my life I've lost contact with the majority of my friends and are only close with his friends. This isn't how it's supposed to work.

*I want a man that is not selfish. Think of others, it's not that hard! And when we get in a fight, or you do something wrong, don't always turn it around to be my fault, when I had NOTHING to do with it! Example: when you made out with your best friends girl...you yelled and cussed at me all night blaming me...Really? was I the one that kissed her? NO you dumbass.

*I want a man with a good wholesome family. It seems that I've always dated a guy where I get really close with his family. I like this, and always want this. Family is important to me, and it needs to be important to him. Watch the way he treats his mother, it is how he will treat you.

That is it for now. Time to study :)

GG

New Beginnings

I blocked the number today. I had to, it's time. We're both at different stages, we definitely don't need each other in our lives at this moment. He's sleeping around with trashy girls...and i'm...busy with school. We all have our priorities! haha..

Goodnight :)

xoxo GG

Letting Go

I believe we meet people in life and endure hurt, pain, lies and tears. These people may have once been "the love of your life." I know that God put him in my life for me to enjoy the good times, fight for what I wanted, and to learn lessons. I've succeeded the first two, the last step is the harder of the three. I know we aren't ment to be together, I want to move on and find someone that is trustworthy, honest, caring and NOT selfcentered. Although, it is hard to admit he's not the one. We had good times, he was once mine, now he's not and all we do is fight. If it's that simple, shouldn't I be able to move on? Or at least be okay with him not being the one for me? The hardest part is wondering why we cant work out, why I'm not good enough for him. I know its really the other way around. But will he ever wake up and see what a good thing he had? I know he wants to do whatever he wants to do right now, but at the end of the day, I hope i'm still the one he loves. It has definitely been a journey with speed bumps along the way, but there's no turning back.

I'm through with the tears, that I've shed all these years.
I'm done with the lies and all the times that I've cried.
I am on to bigger and better things. Time to let my heart sing.

:)

With this being my first post..I feel this will be helping out a lot. I'm excited :)

xoxo GG (Good Girl)

"Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past." -Isaiah 43:18